At the end of every year, I have a tradition of doing an introspection about the year that went through and just list a few lessons and achievements.
Let’s start straight away with some lessons:
- Enjoy while you can because you will never know what you’ll miss. The reality of COVID has forced a lot of businesses to close down, the restaurants and coffee shops had to adapt and I was looking back at how much I enjoyed every single second of my life while going to these bars and restaurants and never regret anything.
- Be content with what you have. I used to be a very ambitious person but this year has allowed me to realize that everything I need is right here, inside of me, at home, with the people I love and surround myself with.
- Take some time off. Unfortunately this pandemic has made quite a damage in my academic year and as I was doing my finals, I had an enormous anxiety attack. Anxiety has always been a lurking shadow in my life but it had never been this imposing before. That’s when I decided it’s time for me to stop. To stop going through whatever making me anxious and there are some serious problems going on in my head.
- It’s okay to ask for help. Referencing to point 3 above, I learned that I need help, professionnal help to deal with my anxiety. I could always cope with it before, it would last a few minutes but when it lasted longer than 72 hours and my muscles were still tense and my heart was still pounding I knew immediately that something is not right. I called and booked my psychologist that day.
- Not everyone is going to share your opinion and you have to accept it. This has always been true to us book reviewers : how many times I would review a book and someone else would say the complete opposite? But that’s not the point here. I’m talking about political, scientific opinions which have raised a lot of discussions during this year with BLM, the elections, the environment, the civil wars and the pandemic itself. What surprised me the most was the extreme spectrums of each camp and how they would bully other people just to get their point.
- The toxicity of cyberbullying. I’ve had way more hate messages this year than any other year, I don’t know if it’s a correlation between people staying more at home and trolls having more free-time or it’s because my account has reached a bigger audience. But no matter what, I look back to this year and see this parasite which involves malicious internet trolls who have nothing to do but to ruin my days. One thing that people seemed to forget is that people who display their pictures on social media never signed up for hatred. We want to share our craft, our creation and our photography, our books opinions and our food reviews. Searching for a way for people to connect.
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