Hi everyone! As the title is pretty self-explanatory, I just wanted to give you guys an update; about what’s been going on in my life and why I haven’t been around much the blogosphere. First, I want to deeply apologize for that. I know I haven’t been blog hopping at all or even read other posts lately. I have always built a great relationship and bond with you guys and I feel I can trust you and sharing some events of my life. The month of August has been a crazy roller coaster and here are some reasons why.
1.My Mom Got Diagnosed with Breast Cancer
Yup, there’s no nice way to say it and I’ve always been the kind of girl who goes straight to the point so here you go. It sucks. The news disturb everyone around us and mostly her. She’s at stage II so the earlier we get the surgery done to remove the tumour, the better it is. I recognize there are some great hopes and breast cancer is the cancer with the most chances of survival so pray for her y’all ❤ She needs all the support she can have. When the news got announced, my first instinct was: I have to spend more time with her. And that’s what I’ve been doing.
2. I Got Sick Pretty Bad
I think event 1 and event 2 are correlated. Just after the news of my mom’s disease, my own body reacted weirdly. First, I got nausea and a few days later I threw up. I couldn’t eat anything, I was always bloating and feeling full (which is my worst nightmare because I love to eat). It comes to the point where I have to shut down my own food blog because the sight of food made me sick. I didn’t want to do anything, I took some time off work, I couldn’t even read and blog my head was always spinning and as if a hammer was banging on it every time I even open a screen. I’m way better now.
3. I got some time on my own to do some serious introspection
The fact that I couldn’t do anything made me have all the time in the world to focus on myself. Without any distractions. I realized a couple of things:
a) I really love blogging and reading. When I couldn’t do either of them for almost a month, my heart aches for a few pages or even a few words with you guys. I was thinking about bookish ideas and posts all day and night. That’s why in the middle of the month, I couldn’t help but post even if it hurts LOL
b) As I spent more time with my mom, I wanted to help her. In that moment, I was going to make one of the most important decisions of my life.
4. Attending Med School
I passed the interview and at first, I wanted to decline it. Because I loved my job, I got a permanent position and I had a great salary. Why waste my years in medicine? But then, it hits me. It I don’t take this opportunity to at least try and help my Mom or even future Moms and children with cancer, I will regret it for the rest of my life. This job can wait. But not Medicine. Maybe it won’t work out, maybe I’ll drop out, but I wanted to try. So while I was really reluctant to go back to school, I decided to take this chance. So yeah that’s why I’ve been off the radar lately ! I started medschool in middle of August(yep super early) and I already have my first exam this Friday.
And these events explain..
Why I Suck At Commenting and Finding the time to do everything I used to.
Do not worry, I already sorted out a draft schedule of posting and back to blog hopping little by little. And with trials and errors, I hope I will find a way to make it work. Meanwhile, if any of you have any tips on how you can keep commenting while balancing life-work and how you guys manage blogging at all, please let me know ❤
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